It' a gloomy Sunday afternoon and I'm in my room,at my desk,with my Chem book and a ton of notes in front of me.

I'm revising,doing my best and hoping I'll understand Chem a bit more and hopefully become decent at it.

I should do so so much more than what I manage to do every afternoon. I'd love to be able to stay up revising till 2 AM like I was able to do an year ago.

I should understand more stuff. I should get better grades. I should do more questions for the Admission Test to Med School I'll hopefully take in September..more than my usual 30 or 50 per Saturday or Friday afternoon(my weekly break from studying for exams).

I should stop leaning so much on my lovely Twitter friends..because they have a life of their own and I cannot force them to babysit me every time.

I should stop having 30 minutes long breakdowns in the library when I am at school.

I should be happy because I have the most amazing family I could ask for and I am in good health and I have everything I could ask for.

I should stop feeling like I am a failure just because I'm struggling so bad.

I should love my program because not many people got in...and I should be happy because I  did.

I should stop writing because it's childish and a waste of time.

I should be brave and strong...and able to fight for what I want.

I should go back to my Chem book.