Stop.

I want all of this to stop.

I don't want to be anxious and depressed anymore.

I don't want to keep having wonderful people taking care of me.

I don't want to make those said people sick of me.

I want my blog posts to be nice and to inspire people.

I live on a thread.

I'm so scared of losing people I'm friends with because I went wrong with something unknown to me and they got mad,walked away and abandoned me.

It has been happening since I started school..since I was 6.

People never wanted to be with me. The only thing I wanted was a friend.

I got traumatized by all of these being left alone that I started thinking of myself as a burden and a bother.

I think disabled people often think like this of themselves.

Even though now I have my walker..sometimes I still feel like a burden,a bother,a mistake..a waste of space.

Yes..I'm whining. I know.

I hope it'll get better.