I know so many amazing people. And I feel so bad for them when they feel bad. 

They don't deserve it. I wish I could do more for them.                                                  

Sometimes I feel so so useless. Because I can't help people. 

And since helping people is my most favorite thing in the entire world,that's bad.

 I feel useful when I help people. It's clichè and whatever but..helping people makes me feel good. I feel like I found my place in the world when I help people.                                                                      I wish I didn't always need help myself. From now on,I'll rely on this blog to talk about how I feel. Because I've been told all of these crappy life experiences I'm having right now will help me becoming a better person and hopefully a better physician. I cancelled my drafts for my stories and it didn't hurt too much. Maybe I'm growing up or something. I don't know. I'll swear I'll be a better person. Less self centered. Sweeter. Kinder. Smarter. Better. Less needy.